Is it just me or...

Is it just me, or does the beginning of the new journey towards coding and development feel like a futile uphill battle, where you never quite feel comfortable with anything you're doing?? (AHHHRRGGHHH!!)

Over the past 2 weeks, I've been tasked with undertaking a series of coding challenges, including selecting three small "fun" project builds in Javascript for the vestibule training program I am hoping to become a fellow of in the Fall.

The projects I've selected all use vanilla JS, HTML and CSS; (all of which I am a complete novice)

1. A basic calculator
2. A to-do list
3. A meditation app

I'm not gonna lie, even though coding along with the tutorials is seemingly "simple", and the content is excellent and the instructors are like lightening fast ninjas, I'm just so flustered at the amount of concepts, terminology and deep understanding that I am just unaware and aloof to.

And I notice these tutorials are deceptively succinct, but because there are so many concepts that are new and unfamiliar to me, they definitely take 2-3x's the amount of time to complete.

I suppose that this is just a part of the process-- and that it is normal to feel completely oblivious and insecure... it's just difficult to accept that there is no shortcut-- only time and practice and working on projects that will hopefully increase my knowledge and confidence on this journey.

Well... to another week of grinding away at this coding, even through the uncertainty and discomfort.