Nevertheless, Sarah Coded

It's that time of the year when we get to write this and I am happy to write one. Not because I've got some exciting story to inspire or motivate you but simply to tell you that sometimes it's okay not to have it all figured out. That's how I feel right now. Why do I feel this way? Let me tell you a little story about myself.

A few years ago, I started my journey in tech as a frontend developer. You see, frontend development has always been my strong point. I mean give me any design and I'll make the interface look like the design while making it responsive and trying to make it as accessible and performant as possible.

Last year, I joined a different company. Not as a Frontend developer this time but as a software engineer. What this means is that I do backend tasks and everything in between. I was excited to learn a whole lot of new things. I still am. With each challenging task I overcome, I feel happier and I feel better.

But I guess there's something about trying out a different challenge. While you feel excited, there's this constant reminder that you don't really know as much as you should. I ask myself sometimes, do I really know what I am doing? What do I want to do next? What do I want to learn next? I mean with Frontend development there's always something I want to try out or do. I had a path all figured out in my head. But it's different with backend development.

Don't get me wrong, I really love my current job and I think it challenges me enough. But I'm just at this point where I really do not know what I'm doing. I can't be the only one that feels this way. Or am I?

I know this is a phase in my career that will pass. I know sometime soon I'll have a clear plan of what I want to do next. Till then, I'll continue to show up at work every day and do my best. I'll continue to try to learn new things and grow in my knowledge. I'll continue to start new courses and get tired of them halfway. I'll continue to solve Leetcode problems whenever I can. I'll continue to code.

Till next time!!!